Celebrations, Tears, A New Year
2017 is here. Wow. At times I felt as if last year was never going to come to an end. At other times, I wanted time to stand still because I wasn't ready to move on from Emerie's passing. So what do I feel today, January 1st, 2017? Not much different. I face this year without my daughter, who I thought would be here. I face a year of continual grieving and challenges that come along with losing a baby. I face Emerie's first birthday in 7 months. Before I get carried away, let me write about my last few days here in CA. Let me touch on something good that happened at the end of 2016. My sister got married and actually my cousin got engaged, so that was a great way to end such a tough year. My sister's wedding was great because I got to see relatives that I had not seen in a long time. It was so much fun to be there with family and friends celebrating my sister. I do have to admit that it was very stressful and my anxiety was really high. However, I t...