New Years Resolution...Life Resolution

At the end of every year, people are always talking about or deciding on what they want to leave behind, change, or start at the beginning of the New Year. I used to participate in this, but quickly realized that New Years Resolutions were only to make myself feel justified for all the bad I had done in the previous year. After about a month, I would forget about them, and go back to my normal life. Maybe they do work for some, but I think for the normal person, we realize that we cannot change ourselves completely; a part of the old us will always be there. Anyways, so usually how I end the year is thanking God for that year, the good and the bad, and for being alive still. I see the New Year as a new chapter in my life and start pondering what am I going to write down in this chapter? The inevitable questions is, how will I change or do something different with my life? HOw will I change the cycle of how things are going? By actively everyday, choosing to follow through, not just on New Years Day. So anyways, what have I been working on? What has God been challenging me on? What will I continue to carry out in 2013.... 1. Forgive myself and others easily (of course there are exceptions, but I mean in general everyday settings) 2. Let go of the grudges that I keep holding on too, let go of the hurt inside that holds me back emotionally...and only makes me weaker 3. Talk more with my family and close friends...keep those relationships alive! 4. Continue trusting God with my life because ultimately loving him and walking with him will help me to follow through on all of the above.... There it is for me...what will it be for you today? Tomorrow? New Years Eve? In 2013?

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