Finding A Church Home

This task/adventure has proven quite difficult. My husband and I have been attending a church here in town. However, certain bad things have occurred since being here. The church currently has no pastor and they are struggling to find one. A lot of people have also decided to leave the church over theological and staff disagreements. So where does that leave us? We are new to the area and new to the church. We are making new friends but still feel like we are not tied down to this church. However, it has been 10 months, and I'm really not wanting to just walk away and quit on this church that I thought was decent. Churches are not perfect and have their defects, and we get that. However, when a church is floundering in it's direction and members are leaving, what is one to do? Recently, I've decided to stop worrying and just trust that God will help me see the path he wants me on. Today I feel this new conviction to just seek out my own serving passions without necessarily the approval of church members or a pastor. When did I become so needy of man's approval? This issue has definitely revealed my lack of trust in God and has now convicted me in a whole new way. It is important to go to church and have fellowship, but one should not let their mistakes hinder their walk. Maybe I was letting all this negativity hinder my servant hood. I'm not sure what will happen, but I will continue doing and praying at the same time, instead of just sitting around feeling sorry for myself.

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