6 Months, Half an Eternity

Dear Emerie, happy 6 months.  I wonder what milestones you would be hitting, if you would have been eating foods yet, and maybe even had some teeth? Would you still have hair, would you be holding yourself up, would you be sleeping through the night?  Who would you look like? Would you constantly smile like me? Would you enjoy bath time and story time?  How would you be?  I know that you are up in heaven, rejoicing with the Lord, but mommy and daddy miss you.  We are very selfish and wish you were here on Earth, even though we know heaven is way better.  I can't believe you've been gone that long, it felt like just yesterday we were at the hospital going through all the craziness.  I know I am still a mommy even if you aren't here on earth.  Sometimes it's hard to see myself that way because I am not doing all the typical things one would be doing with a 6 month old baby.  How would my life be now with you here? Would I be working or not? Would we be planning more family trips so everyone could meet you? All I know is that you would be loved, and continue to be loved even though you are not here.

My love has only grown for you.  I never imagined I could love someone so much that isn't here.  My tears and grieving are my love for you. I will never forget you, and am always holding onto you in my heart, mind, and soul.  Emerie, even though I am heartbroken, I do have to say thank you for making me a mother.  I am so grateful for the time I did have with you, and I don't regret anything.  So if by chance you look down, know that mommy and daddy are trying their best to be good parents.  Sometimes we fail and want to give up.   We know we must keep going, and you are a huge
part of our motivation.

I love you sweet girl.

-Mommy

Comments

  1. JenFebruary 4, 2017 at 5:42 PM

    Been thinking of you today and emerie. I wonder the same things. Hugs to you sweet friend.

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  2. ChristyFebruary 4, 2017 at 9:12 PM

    The Lord specifically layed on my heart to pray for you and Brandon today. Now I know that was the mighty work of the Holy Spirit working on your behalf today, Jenn. I specifically prayed that God would just hold you both in his arms today with his perfect and everlasting love and that God would give you both an everlasting peace that only He can bring in your hearts. Even though we are a ways away know that you, Brandon,and precious Emerie are in our hearts and prayers. Hugs to you both, dear friends.��❤

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