Bitter to Sweet and Everything in Between, Parenting After Loss
"All I can do is look at the stars, and wonder how you are..." Bringing a living child home after losing a child is like a twilight zone episode in many ways. There is a constant questioning of whether there is a living child in my house. There is a constant comparison or want of comparison between Aria and her older sister Emerie. That part sucks the most because once we passed the 3 day mark of birth, I could not compare anymore... Also being a new parent, even though this is our 3rd child. The biggest hurdle, allowing myself to enjoy this child, and not let fear rule my thoughts that somehow I will lose this one too... Before I dive into the grief side of things I want to make sure that you know that I am 100% grateful for Aria. She is a blessing, and we do not regret anything about her conception or birth. Know that even though I am sad, that doesn't mean I am not joyful to have Aria. So I said I would talk about grief in my last blog post, and it lite...