My March Madness, the Newness of Spring, and the Return to Work
This is going to be sweet and short because I am struggling with energy and motivation at this point. March was mad! Mad means crazy also if you didn't know...and that's how it felt. Grief assailed me night and day at times, just constantly reminding me of Emerie and everything that could never be and also the anniversary of miscarrying Elie...I know that grief is a form of love unanswered, BUT SERIOUSLY COULD I GET A BREAK! I still have to care for a baby, my family and myself, and somehow I have to handle all these emotions. It's physically draining and seriously I struggled with motivation most days. It was a constant bounce back from joy to grief, happy to sad, peaceful to angry, rejoicing to depressed, and just comparing our family to others and starting this whole crazy, mad process all over again. I guess, my love and wonder for Emerie and Elie will never end, and so I must learn to deal! Dealing is hard...and sometimes I feel like I'm crawling along, ba...