Another Birthday, Another Trigger
Grief is my constant companion because it represents my love for Emerie and Elie. It will never go away. Just typing this and putting it into words is a tough pill to swallow at times. This burden, at times, is heavy and I feel suffocated. Other times I feel crazy because I am extremely happy to have Aria but at the same time I am extremely sad that Emerie isn't here too... And sometimes I feel light and peaceful, which is so strange because I still feel sad underneath it. So this year, year 2 after Emerie, I thought my birthday would be light, possibly I would feel at peace and not so burdened. However, I was mistaken. All summer, I kept watching more family and friends continued to have their second or third child without complications. Let me take a pause here and say that I am not wishing bad ON ANYONE! In fact, I am genuinely happy for all who were blessed with another living child, and this has been a life lesson for me to be happy for others even when I am sad or ...