Raw, Transparent, Me

Faces not seen Only masks showing Smiles glued on Clothes pressed & clean. Being polite Saying "Hello," Never going deeper Shallow pool for kiddies. Not looking for best friends, Not looking for food. Just wanting for Deeper encounters. Sunday occasion Check-in Get fattened like a calf Headed out for the slatter. The snoring is loud The brain unstirred. Is this really All there is to this place? Broken relationships, Mended with Artificial emotions, Ignoring the wounds. Socialism rules the institution. A group of leaders Deciding and choosing What they think is best. I don't agree That this place Is Fertile Or nutritious. Plants are dying Dormant, not bearing fruit. Fruitful ones seem To be transplanted and removed.

This task/adventure has proven quite difficult. My husband and I have been attending a church here in town. However, certain bad things have occurred since being here. The church currently has no pastor and they are struggling to find one. A lot of people have also decided to leave the church over theological and staff disagreements. So where does that leave us? We are new to the area and new to the church. We are making new friends but still feel like we are not tied down to this church. However, it has been 10 months, and I'm really not wanting to just walk away and quit on this church that I thought was decent. Churches are not perfect and have their defects, and we get that. However, when a church is floundering in it's direction and members are leaving, what is one to do? Recently, I've decided to stop worrying and just trust that God will help me see the path he wants me on. Today I feel this new conviction to just seek out my own serving passions without necessarily...

So since moving to Fort Wayne, I have come to realize they do not believe in having toilet seat covers. One might think, oh no big deal, but then you are caught having to use the restroom badly and then having to take 5 more seconds to cover it with toilet paper. It's very annoying and frustrating to always have to take the time to cover the toilet. It also makes me wonder if all people cover the toilet at all? I feel like I take more time in there than most, but I don't care because I'm not going to take any risks. LOL Anyways so I have a new learned appreciate for toilet seat covers! I definitely am excited when I see them and rejoice on my own in the stall! Well, here's to continuing the toilet paper ritual! lol

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I've been listening to this group for a few years....love love there music! It's so creative and different!

"It is important that you say what you mean to say. Time is too short. You must speak words that matter." - Hans Ickman Page 49

I like to imagine that the world is one big machine. You know, machines never have any extra parts. They have the exact number and type of parts they need. So I figure if the entire world is a big machine, I have to be here for some reason. And that means you have to be here for some reason, too. Part 2 Chapter 6 Page 378

It's super exciting to start this year with huge changes!!! My husband and I were blessed with finding an adorable home just for the two of us, and all our stuff! Looking forward to decorating and making it our home! Thank you God for providing us with a place to call our own!!! lol