Raw, Transparent, Me

So.....after whining and crying to a good friend I have been blessed to make, she challenged me to be the change I want to see.  This involved throwing myself out there, being vulnerable, and putting aside the fear of rejection.  Of course to any normal person, maybe they would just shy away from the situation like this. However, since I cannot run away from every situation, and because I also do not enjoy being isolated, I decided to step forward and put myself out there. What was amazing was that I discovered that other girls in my group also felt similar...and it was awesome to have some people over to just hang out and get to know.  My insecurities were quieted...maybe I am not such an outcast after all. Of course my husband and I are still thinking about staying at this church, but at least we can begin to make real friendships in a new place.   Being new has not been easy, BUT I am not the only one struggling...and it's nice to know.  So anyways, here is t...

So I've decided to begin blogging more consistently and maybe I will get somewhere with these thoughts. Anyways, so here is my first blog of the year...sadly. As my earlier posts say, I have been struggling to connect with people at the church I attend. It's been almost a year and half since joining this church, and still...still...feeling alone. I don't know what it is but maybe it is me in the end. Maybe I am too different and I am off-standish and this is preventing me from connecting with people. I recognize, I'm not perfect, but one thing I do know is that I have put myself out there. So why do you ask am I so discouraged again?? Why Jenn? Why? lol ( And yes, even I am annoyed with myself. I do not enjoy feeling this way.) Let me give you 10 reasons why I think I still have not connected. 1. I do not like country music or intend on listening to it ever. 2. I do not have a child or am pregnant. 3. I like to speak the truth. 4. I need good worship music. ( I...