Ok Ok.....I'm going to be Proactive...

So.....after whining and crying to a good friend I have been blessed to make, she challenged me to be the change I want to see.  This involved throwing myself out there, being vulnerable, and putting aside the fear of rejection.  Of course to any normal person, maybe they would just shy away from the situation like this. However, since I cannot run away from every situation, and because I also do not enjoy being isolated, I decided to step forward and put myself out there.

What was amazing was that I discovered that other girls in my group also felt similar...and it was awesome to have some people over to just hang out and get to know.  My insecurities were quieted...maybe I am not such an outcast after all.

Of course my husband and I are still thinking about staying at this church, but at least we can begin to make real friendships in a new place.  

Being new has not been easy, BUT I am not the only one struggling...and it's nice to know.  So anyways, here is to stepping out in faith, and reaching out to others that might be in a similar state of mind. Insecurities never really leave us I feel, they just take different form as you get older.  If I've discovered anything through moving to a new place is that my insecurities are still pretty real and alive. Here is to fighting them and hopefully quieting them forever...


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