Raw, Transparent, Me

Even When It Hurts-Hillsong UNITED "Even When It Hurts (Praise Song)" Take this fainted heart Take these tainted hands Wash me in Your love Come like grace again Even when my strength is lost I'll praise You Even when I have no song I'll praise You Even when it's hard to find the words Louder then I'll sing Your praise I will only sing Your praise I will only sing Your praise I will only sing Your praise Take this mountain weight Take these ocean tears Hold me through the trial Come like hope again Even when the fight seems lost I'll praise You Even when it hurts like hell I'll praise You Even when it makes no sense to sing Louder then I'll sing Your praise I will only sing Your praise I will only sing Your praise I will only sing Your praise And my heart burns only for You You are all You are all I want And my soul waits only for You And I will sing till the morning has come Lord my heart burns only for You You are all You are all I want And my...

I'll start at the beginning. My husband and I had decided that we were nearing the time of wanting children.  It happened so quickly when we found out I was expecting.  That day was December 2nd, 2015.  It explained why I had been feeling nauseous and just generally moody (LOL).  It was so exciting tell my close friends and family because this was going to be the first grandchild for my parents and the 3rd for my husband's family.  Christmas was so exciting because that is when we broke the news and people slowly started finding out.  On January 9th, 2016, we saw and heard Emerie for the first time at our first ultrasound.  Because I had no medical history of any significance, I was considered a low risk pregnancy, and so I did not go to the doctor more than the normal times.  Hearing Emerie's heartbeat for the first time was incredible.  I cried because of how beautiful it sounded.  While pregnant, it was also my first year of teachin...