Raw, Transparent, Me

At the end of every year, people are always talking about or deciding on what they want to leave behind, change, or start at the beginning of the New Year. I used to participate in this, but quickly realized that New Years Resolutions were only to make myself feel justified for all the bad I had done in the previous year. After about a month, I would forget about them, and go back to my normal life. Maybe they do work for some, but I think for the normal person, we realize that we cannot change ourselves completely; a part of the old us will always be there. Anyways, so usually how I end the year is thanking God for that year, the good and the bad, and for being alive still. I see the New Year as a new chapter in my life and start pondering what am I going to write down in this chapter? The inevitable questions is, how will I change or do something different with my life? HOw will I change the cycle of how things are going? By actively everyday, choosing to follow through, not j...

I think this song is a perfect expression on how I've felt about certain Christians I have come across.  I know that at a time in my life, I was also this self-righteous Christian, and so I know what it means to be on both sides.  I want to dedicate this song to someone in my extended family.  They probably will never read this blog, but you know who you are.  Around Halloween time, you had no problem judging me, so I wonder what else you say about me or people like me! Because you are so good right?? Anyways, I am Christian, I am not perfect, but I strive to be like Jesus.  I fail everyday and I'm working on recognizing it. Let God convict me of my faults, let HIM change me, not your judgmental attitude. I'm glad that their are bands out there like Paramore that can write a song and it is exactly how I feel about something at a particular time. Enjoy!

So my husband and I recently relocated to Indiana from California. So far there are a few differences, but nothing major. Our neighborhood is really quiet and everyone seems rather friendly and laid back. I was so excited to find a Chipotle downtown as well. Of course, most of our belongings are on there way so I e mainly been watching movies and watching more movies, lol. I'm trying not to shop because I spent way too much on thanksgiving weekend, lol. I've had a lot of free time to relax, and I hope to keep acclimating to my new surroundings.  More to come as I explore and learn more about my new home state.

So I thought that I would be happy that they are now over. For months, I had to sit through people blabbing all over facebook about something political. What annoyed me the most was the fact that these "facebook friends" never once before had said anything political until the elections were coming up. Of course, I am a respector of opinions, and in fact, enjoy a good debate. However, what angered me the most, were all these ignorant posts. People who just follow the crowd, and people who follow the media. Anyways, now the election has come, it's over, Obama is president again, GREAT. Congrats, don't agree with you 90% of the time, but still gonna respect the vote of the people/electoral votes. What followed next really angered me, people being so disgusting about Romney, and rude and so proud of Obama winning. Yes, it's good for you that the team, oh I mean the President you were rooting for won, but now what? Today is a new day, unemployment is still high,...

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So since I've come back from Japan, I've been living a different life. I don't eat the same and I don't act the same. WHY? I get asked so many times, when it comes to my diet. People here in the US, can't fathom not being able to eat all the fatty, acidy causing foods they love to consume everyday. So I included a link above, to actually explain what I've been going through since February of this year. Every time I had attempted to explain it or call it by it's name people were like " What?" lol So hopefully, I educate some out there on what's going and it might be able to help them in their life. My life since discovering this "condition" has been different. I was a food lover like almost any other American, or human being out there. My main things were spicy, creamy, and fatty things. I don't know how exactly I developed it, but I know that my poor diet while being in Japan, probably contributed to it. I was also wor...

DoppelgangerRunway: Falling for Fall : Collars & leather Derek Lam According to  Marie Claire Magazine , other "top" Fall trends include: monochromatic white outfits,  blue ... This is my sister's new blog, Follow it, it's gonna be awesome! She'll inform us, the normal non-fashionable people about what's out there for us to buy and wear!! Excited! Stay tuned for more!

So I moved out in June from my parents home, and I thought it was going to be a piece of cake. I had been living in Japan for over a year by myself, so I thought, "6 hours away is really nothing compared to the whole Pacific Ocean." However, I was wrong! Hahaha Well the first week I just spent most of my days crying lol and feeling depressed. I did do som job hunting and I tried taking some classes online to distract myself; it helped. I believe the hardest thing to accept was the fact that I was and am growing up. NO more being a kid, or running to mom and dad for my problems. Of course, my fiance is amazing and on top of everything is super patient with me, but still it's continued to be a tough time. Realizing that everyone is going there separate ways, and accepting the fact that you won't know everything that is going on in each others lives...this is something really tough for me, especially because I have to make new friends here in my new city. However,...